Life is linear.
It’s full of cause and effect.
Everything happens for a reason.
What you put in is what you’ll get out.
I ask myself the following questions everyday when I’m on my lunch break at work:
- Why am I here?
- What am I doing this for?
- Do I want to do this for the rest of my life?
I can’t answer the first 2 questions yet, but the last question is always answered by a resounding “NO WAY.”
I had a meeting with my manager last week and he said that I can do whatever I want within the company because I definitely have the skill set to do so. I take that as a great compliment but do I really want to do whatever I want within the company? Do I want to turn into him?
My best guess is that he’s in his sixties. I know he has gout which affects him greatly. I know he’s on salary so he gets the same wage regardless of how many hours he works. He’s working 50 hours next week which means he opens and closes everyday.
I hate working 35 hours a week and opening and closing the same day twice a week.
What he’s doing isn’t called living; it’s called working way too fuckin much. I often wonder, “why is he doing it?” or “why can’t he retire yet?”
Everyone I work with is miserable. One guy keeps on having kids because he gets 3 months of paternity leave. I wish I was joking…
Two other people constantly wonder if they’ll get fired soon. Another is trying to get a job somewhere else. Another is around 50 and is still living paycheck to paycheck.
I don’t want to turn into these people. I don’t want to live to work and work to live. I want to enjoy living, meet interesting people, and experience incredible things throughout the world. I don’t want to wait until I “retire” either.
I won’t have the opportunity with this job. I won’t have the time. I might have the money but I won’t have the health.
How about you? Where will you be in a few years if you continue on the same path? In 10 years?
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If you’re scared shitless at that question like I am, stay tuned to the blog. I’m getting everything together to do a complete relaunch at the beginning of next year. Until then, stay positive and keep moving forward.